The Palatine Wall

Ben Williams asked me to write a short piece about the Palatine Wall, to be included in his upcoming update to Jerry Handren’s guidebook Mojave Limestone.

Using the notes app on my phone, I jotted down scattered thoughts that came to me as I drove from Colorado to Sacramento, putting the final touches on the piece during a night alone in Tahoe. Burying myself in nostalgia — that bittersweet blend of pain and pleasure — I revisited not only a special place, but a singular time in my life.

With Ben’s permission, I am reproducing the short piece here:

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The Palatine Wall

Brette Harrington in front of the mighty Palatine Wall – 2025

In spring 2018, I reconnected with a lanky, blonde, uber-psyched climber at my local crag near Seattle. Tom Moulin ate, slept, and breathed rock climbing, so when he invited me to Vegas that June, I wondered what he knew that I didn’t.

Vegas in June? 

A quick look at the weather showed temperatures in the 90s, even 100s. Surely that was much too hot for even the deepest, darkest canyons in Red Rock, and wasn’t Potosi sunny? 

Just as I was about to text him a screenshot of the forecast paired with one of those shruggy emojis, he beat me to it with a picture of his portable thermometer: 52 degrees. 

Well, damn. I zoomed into the background — fuzzy, thin green lines colored the frame. Wait, were those…pine trees? 

A week or so later, I walked through the sliding doors of the airport and into the unrelenting sun, hair-dryer-style wind blasting across my face. Soon I was behind the wheel of Tom’s small truck, trying to keep his dented old Sprinter in sight as he zipped down the 95. 

Climbing Kyle Canyon Road, the dry-earth, barren-wasteland vibe gradually gave way to Joshua trees, then junipers. By the time we passed the hotel and roundabout, wiry ponderosa pines shot through the sky. 

I’d only seen one photo of the crag, but I recognized it instantly as it flashed into view just before the last hairpin turn. Craning my neck to take it in, I nearly drove clean off the road. 

It looked big and gray, even blue, like something you could find in France. It looked, as we say in the climbing world, mega. 

“I was listening to that History of Rome podcast a lot when I first started coming up here,” Tom told me as we turned off the main hiking trail, the wall looming above everything, impossible to miss. Following a faint footpath up a slight slope, we crisscrossed over fallen, burned logs strewn across our path. The Palatine Hill — the namesake for the wall we were approaching — was one of the most prominent points in ancient Rome, visible to everyone, where emperors built their palaces overlooking the city. 

Apt and clever, I thought, as we reached the base of the wall, perched atop its own small hill, then ascended the low 5th-class terrain that guarded the sheer faces of the upper tier. 

That first day, I climbed Via Appia, a 5.12- that follows creamy blue limestone, passes a fierce boulder early on, and ends on lovely, technical face climbing on bullet rock. It was the first 5.12 I did on Mt. Charleston, and I still consider it to be the best. Then, I set my sights on the  tricky, burly crux of Cursus Honorum, a harder version of Via Appia and just as good. 

In the evening, Tom fell at the very tippy-top of his 50-meter project, Crossing the Rubicon. It was a great day out, and we bounded down the hill at dusk as if we weighed nothing at all — the ponderosas breathing vanilla into the cooling air, phlox blooming a brilliant half-white, half-pink alongside us. 

The following summer, we were stuck in Las Vegas and turned our attention to the Palatine. Tom taught me how to bolt. I started small with Illyria, a bouldery, short route and a nice addition to a cliff otherwise dominated by endurance test pieces. Then, I scoped the attractive gray-blue panel above Tom’s brilliant Lex Julia, what would become Amicus Curiae.  
 
To access a small ledge above the wall, we simul-climbed the complete, two-pitch Via Appia, setting up our respective anchors so we could rappel over our routes-to-be. Before Tom began lowering down over Casus Belli to begin work on Veni Vidi Vici — the clear king line of the wall — he called out to me. 

“Here—” He lobbed a single almond out of the Ziploc bag he was snacking from across the 15 feet of clean air between us. To our surprise, I actually managed to catch it, both of us cheering. I always thought that was a good omen. 

Climbing Boudica, one of the many routes Tom added to the Palatine in 2021, on a scorching, mid-July afternoon. Photo: Tom Moulin

It was a long, hot summer, and the Palatine truly was the coldest cliff around. We fell into a rhythm: climbing on R2C2’s moonboard in the morning, driving to Charleston, then retreating to our fixed lines to work on our respective routes. In between sessions, we’d spend idle time on the large ledge at the base, the scenery and position occasionally slipping me into a sort of reverie. 

I’ve returned to the Palatine off and on over the years. Even with modest traffic, it’s cleaned up — less chossy, a clean rap line to descend, and otherwise shaping up to resemble a prim and proper sport cliff. Most people like what it offers: remote, yet close to the road; adventurous yet civilized; dishing up everything we love  — a good place to get pumped, try hard, and maybe even find a bit of flow. 

Still, my first impression was a bit overcooked. The Palatine Wall is not mega — it’s very rough around the edges, there aren’t that many routes, they’re all hard and slippery, and you’ll encounter all manner of sport-climbing tricks that make it abundantly clear you’re nowhere near the south of France. 

Even as the Palatine grew familiar to the point of routine — as I turned off the main trail without thinking, knew exactly which hand- and footholds to use as I made my way up from the bottom tier, and dialed in projects and warmups — it still surprised me. Not with anything concrete, like a new feature I hadn’t noticed, but with how a day out climbing there could make me feel: defiant, curious, wild, a sense of potential always stirring as I descended and left the wall for another day.

Booting up to give Casus Belli a rip on a very cold, early fall day in 2021. Photo: Tom Moulin

What I’ve been up to lately.

Or, in other words, what I’ve been up to over the last two years (since I’ve updated this blog).


In writing…
here are a few pieces I’ve published that I am proud of, for Big Think

Maggie after a day of bouldering in Bolam Pass, Telluride, looking across the valley floor, hazy with incoming wildfire smoke.

An interview with Anne Lamott & Neal Allen about their new book, Good Writing

A piece on why the short story deserves more attention

A personal essay about my time living in a van (available in a very beautiful print magazine, as well – the art team nailed the photos and layout)

An interview with Dr. Martin Picard, who is leading an emerging field in biology that studies the intersection of energy & health through empirical studies involving mitochondria.

A profile of Dr. Betül Kaçar, an astrobiologist, and a lovely, wise person.

and many more, over on Big Think

In climbing..

The end of the crux on Route of All Evil (and the redpoint crux of Necessary Evil!)

In February 2025, I sent The Route of All Evil – my hardest and proudest climb to date. Last winter I began to work its famous cousin Necessary Evil , generally finding my fingers to be far too weak – and my power too lackluster- to reliably tackle the v11/12 intro boulder. This summer, I embarked on a training plan to see if I could level up. Hopefully I’ll have a chance to try the route some more this winter.

I traveled to Greece and various parts of Spain. I began speaking Spanish again, more regularly.

Ticked my first 8a+ flash (more like a ‘flosh’)

I went exploring across the western United States to “rando” crags and boulder fields – SW Colorado and Utah, around Las Vegas, Colorado, California..

I’ve been navigating a dropping sense of motivation, paired, however, with a growing sense of pride and accomplishment in what I’ve managed to do and how I’ve lived my life—even if the path I am looking back on may no longer be the path I want to take ahead.

In life...

An old photo from the Golden Gate Range (NV). One of my favorites.

Ending a serious relationship in 2024 – and pursuing other threads since – has left questions I still confront on a daily basis. I suppose I figured I’d have it all worked out by now. I try to keep Rilke’s advice in mind – that is, to love the questions themselves.

I’ve been prioritizing going to see live music. Unforgettable nights ensued – Justice, Jamie XX, Lane 8, The XX, the list goes on. I relish in gaining energy from others on the dance floor, everyone on the same wavelength, all of us letting go.

I wrote a short story that I’m far too embarrased to publish here.

After a long break, I began shooting with my film camera again.

I lost my more stable writing jobs, I suspect to AI, and couldn’t find another one.

I accepted a teaching position at a community college in Sacramento, dusting off that ‘ole PhD and re-immersing myself in the world of botany.

I’m 35, without really any friends in Sacramento. I like to ride my bike around town and get to know the neighborhoods (and impressive tree canopy).
It’s all a bit of a trip.
AKA – I’m new here, will you show me around?

More soon.



My Time on Planet Earth

Photo by Rachel Melville

In the middle of winter, I began calling the Virgin River Gorge (VRG) the “Twilight Zone.” The Cambridge Dictionary defines the Twilight Zone as an area where two different ways of life or states of existence meet.

This description came to me on a particularly cold and damp January afternoon. I was sitting on the slab perch beneath the Planet Earth Wall, at the base of Dirt Cowboy, preparing to climb. The temperature hovered around 42 degrees, but, without a breeze, all of us were shedding layers as we climbed.

The VRG draws fame from its juxtaposition—the common refrain jokes that the cliff houses the best limestone in America, but in the worst location. Anyone who has spent time here understands that the VRG’s paradox only begins superficially with its freeway-adjacent location and mind-boggling weather patterns that vary minute-to-minute. In one way or another, the physical contradictions of the place infect your bloodstream and color your experience.

There was a contrast built into the way I approached my climbing day-to-day, and how I considered the season as a whole. For me, my desired outcome seemed completely unimaginable, yet altogether inevitable.

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Reeflay

 “In that case, I have one more question for you” a fellow Rifle climber posed to me after I accepted his offer to give me beta for a route. He was lounging comfortably in a lawn chair at the Bauhaus wall on a sultry July afternoon, a spliff in one hand and a laser-pointer in the other.

“Would you like beta given via conversation or via laser?”

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Third Millennium

“I can see it in your eyes”, he told me.

It was the kind of day where you could so easily slip into the weather, let it take you by the hand and guide your mood.

“No…”, I managed to mutter.

My breath quivered and hung in the air, a sliver of silver. I watched it rise, coalesce and crash into itself, tumble outward and grow until it vanished, a slim shadow thickening into the gray sky.

He was right. I was frustrated and doing a poor job of hiding it. I had tried a route, “Third Millennium” that I deliberately sought out because I hoped it would be challenging. The most difficult series of movement on the route is the very first dozen or so moves. On my first attempt I tried the sequences repeatedly, but did not even come close to doing any of them. I pulled on the rope, slumped deep in my harness and looked up. I saw seven quickdraws, slapping and shuddering in the wind. This is when I felt my mind split into two.

One part of me was highly motivated by the challenge. This level of physical difficulty in climbing is what I had been looking for over the past few months. I wanted to clench the route and crack it open, light it up, examine it deeply from all angles until I found a way. I felt unfrightened, curious, driven, and eager. I wanted to continue up the climb.

The other part of me was angry and sullen. It told me I was weak, a bad rock climber, not cut out for routes of this difficulty. I felt stressed, inadequate, disappointed, sad. I felt like I was expected to give up.

I had to make a decision to keep climbing or to stop.

I lowered.

I belayed two other climbers who made easy work of the route. I was speeding down the mental pathway I chose, a bottomless flood rising behind me with no way to get back once crossed.

I was not always like this. Sometime in the past few years, I have forgotten how to ignore this insidious blackout. Now I run into it, arms wide open.

I did return to the route the following day, and thanks to considerate, careful, and kind support from my partner, managed to figure out the moves. A dozen or so working attempts later, I finished the route. Despite my consistent progress, I was still chained up, a prisoner living inside myself.

In the hour after I sent, I was struck by a memory, sweeping and strong in its clarity. In 2015, I signed up to run a half-marathon a mere two weeks before the race. I had just gone through a tumultuous break up with someone I loved and who loved me. I had not ran that distance in a long time, but somehow, I felt the race would help me heal.

I remember my foot jolting against the pavement on my first stride. I saw his face, stricken and cold. I saw the dull glow of my bedroom light. I felt the blades of grass tickling my cheek as I leaned in, charged and warm with desire. I heard the clicking of my bicycle chain, the wind blunt against me.

The air smashed into my ribs and my legs screamed, but it did not hurt. Nothing could hurt. I got second place in that race, beating some semi-professional runners and blew past my own personal record.

I knew then that I have a unique energy. It can transform me, send a shock of electricity that leaves me crackling and glowing. I am capable of more than I think, physically, mentally, emotionally, if I just let myself try.

Of course, I am entirely aggrandizing certain chronic habits and ideas. I’ve always liked to write, but lately I have been indulging on an almost gluttonous level.

As with everything else, I wonder why.

To Bolt or Not To Be

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Up high on Kings of Rap at Smith Rock State Park. Photo by Micah Humphrey

On my 27th birthday, I woke up buried in my sleeping bag, nestled in my car in the middle of Central Oregon. I poked my head out to see frost building up on every window of my car, yet the sky was clear and the sun was strong. This wasn’t an unfamiliar scene- I had spent many nights this winter and spring in the exact same spot, and I welcomed the cold weather. Cold weather meant more days of climbing. In fact, the forecast for the week looked so good that I organized my work around it at the last minute,  driving down from Seattle by myself to capitalize on what would likely be the last week of crisp conditions that would grace this area for months.

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“Flow”


Note: This is an old post, whose content was created for fun, with minor proof-reading. Please keep that in mind when reading this post.

“Flow- An optimal mental state of functioning in which our skill matches the challenge, action and awareness merge, and we become so engaged in the activity that we have a loss of self-consciousness and time gets distorted. Full stop”

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One year ago today I was embarking on the beginning  of what turned out to be one of the best adventures of my life. I traveled from January through mid June finding myself in climbing destinations in California, Utah, Nevada, Arizona, Oregon and Canada. I then moved to Tuolumne (in Yosemite National Park) and had an incredible summer, working all over Yosemite  and spending my days off climbing immaculate granite and exploring the wild places of both the Western and Eastern Sierra. In a quite spur of the moment decision, I ended up climbing in Spain for much of December.

Life was good.

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The Alpine

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” Already- although she was standing right there- she began to miss this place, she knew she would miss it for the rest of her days ”
– Elizabeth Gilbert, The Signature of all things 

The full moon broke through just in time. Its light pierced through the seemingly impenetrable ceiling of darkness, like a beacon on a lighthouse.  When descending in the dark during a storm, speed is of the utmost importance. Still, I couldn’t help but pause and admire its courage as it shone through the clouds and suddenly illuminated the still waters of a distant lake. A symbol of serenity in an otherwise chaotic situation, my nerves eased.  Hours later, after a demanding, thrilling and downright frightening day on Merriam peak, my partner and I collapsed into our sleeping bags, legs sore but minds content.

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Training Trad

Photos of the Chief near Squamish, British Columbia Canada taken in May 2016.
The granite dome dubbed as “The Chief” hides half of its 700m height on a cloudy day in Squamish, BC, Canada.

“Impossible to go on, impossible to descend impossible to stay where he is. […] With cheek and ear pressed against the canyonland bedrock he feels, hears, shares the beating of some massive heart, a heavy murmur buried under mountains old as Mesozoic time. His own heart. A heavy thick remote and subterranean thumping sound. The fear”

-Edward Abbey

The Monkey Wrench Gang

Note: This is an old post whose content was created for fun, with little to no proof-reading or editing. Please read this post keeping that in mind.

Over the past year I have been pushing aside and ignoring the subtle yet ever-present and stubborn goal of mine to improve at traditional climbing. My excuses were plentiful; I did not have the time to go out to trad crags to improve, I didn’t have the money to gather up a proper rack, what little trad I have done made me good enough (5.8 leader…) for some basic alpine objectives, and crack climbing hurts. In reality, becoming a competent trad leader is a central and essential skill I knew I would have to learn if I were ever to achieve my larger, long-term and more complex goal of becoming a strong and well-versed rock climbing goddess. (Okay, maybe not a goddess.. but just a half decent all-around climber). I want to be able to ascend a feature using a variety of techniques and skills that could only have been garnered by years of experience on different types of rocks and in different styles. My resumé with sport climbing wasn’t so bad, but was seriously lacking with traditional climbing. The fact of the matter is, trad climbing is the TICKET to the alpine, the ticket to some bigger mountains and objectives, and no truly well-rounded rock climber should lack in the ability to utilize a good hand-jam in a splitter crack. I was scared, though. I was scared to fall on gear, scared to take the leap and hesitant to push my trad grade the way I had my sport grade. As the final month of my trip was approaching, though, I knew I would not be able to call it a success if I didn’t spend a concentrated amount of time exploring and growing in this discipline. So, I got my passport and headed to Canada.

I apologize to any non-climbers who have found this blog, because this is a particularly jargon heavy post.

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Refocus

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Arrowleaf balsamroot (Balsamorhiza sagittata) blooming in front of the Monument crags at Smith Rock. By mid April these guys were everywhere.

Note: This is an old post whose content was created for fun, with little to no proof-reading or editing. Please read this post keeping that in mind.

I really thought I botched it. Instead of smoothly locking off to clip the second bolt, I hesitated, used some different hand holds, pasted my feet onto things I had never used before, and then I clipped it. “Shit” I thought. I was right about to embark on the  hardest part of “Darkness at Noon”, Smith Rock’s first 13a, and I was already screwing up. If there was any room for error, that was it. I had to climb the rest of the route flawlessly if I wanted to have a shot at it. The crisp morning had already given way to what would be a warm afternoon, with the temperatures seemingly elevated in the little “solar oven” created by the opposing rock faces on either side of me. “Why the hell am I doing this in the sun?” I thought. Looking up, I saw about 25 more meters of unrelentingly hard technical rock climbing that lay ahead. I shook out on a bad pocket for a moment, refocused and forged onward.

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